The day I dreaded for 263 days….BUT GOD

3 days ago I had to wake up and put my feet on the floor and face the hardest day of our lives since we had to give our Gia back to Jesus 263 days ago. I knew Christmas had to come.  I knew New Year's would probably have to come too. But, I never... Continue Reading →


The first and most treasured moments of 2018

Sharing this documented treasure. I started a project one year ago. One that was supposed to last all 12 months but ended up just being the first three. It's One second a day. January 1, 2018 - March 27, 2018. I will forever treasure and ache deeply for these memories of Gianna's last three months... Continue Reading →

A brave Christmas…..

Merry Christmas in Heaven Gia-Bia. Mama wants you here. It is not okay. But, we are Keeping your brave heartbeat so close to our own heartbeats sweet baby💙🦋 You keep us brave . It's not the same without you here to squeal and jump up and down over your newest dolly or plush lovie💔😢. You... Continue Reading →

Mighty not Merry.

  8 months. That's 243 days since I felt her heart beat against mine. I hate that I can't tangibly feel her beautiful pounding heart muscle anymore with my hands or my chest or my cheek. We all just loved pressing our faces deeply into her brave scars that traced the handiwork of our mighty... Continue Reading →

a miracle happened 7 years ago….

Today is so special!!!! The anniversary of a miracle!   7 years ago, in a huge civil affairs office in Southern China, we were handed the most beautiful treasure in the whole wide world. That room suddenly became a labor and delivery room and every emotion was experienced in that sacred precious encounter. When they... Continue Reading →

Some Days…..Always…

Mama misses you my sweet very much. Some days I can get my grief legs under me.... But some days all I can do is crawl. Some days I can breathe and I feel God's light and His promises so close to my heart. But some days, I'm literally choking on my grief. I... Continue Reading →

Our Tree of Hope

Our tree of HOPE🦋. We decorated our tree in honor of our brave 🦋Gia-Bia🦋 who hung her ❤️brave heart💔 every year in praise for our God of miracles! I felt her so close as we filled our tree with her favorite color. I know she’s loving her tree from heaven😍😢. so thankful that last... Continue Reading →

Dear Younger Us…..

Look at us. Such naive Babies.... completely thinking we were complete. How much we thought we knew our future. ....I am so thankful that God saved us from this "normal safe life" that’s pictured in this photo. ....that sweet smaller Family has absolutely no idea what’s coming….. Thinking this is all there is ...they have... Continue Reading →

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