Love notes to heaven and back….

Love notes to heaven.... There's always a butterfly in Gianna's garden.     Always light. Always color. Always beauty. Always fairies. Always birds.         Always something magical and heavenly happening.   We know she's close.   We know Jesus is close.   We feel heaven touch us on that anointed ground. We... Continue Reading →


Ink instead of Italy

20 years ago we started our journey of forever together and we also started dreaming together. We started dreaming about our 20th year anniversary. Dreaming together of touring beautiful Italy and visiting Brian's roots and his Italian heritage. Never mind the whole money factor, we just enjoyed dreaming BIG together. God's dreams are bigger. We... Continue Reading →

The hard surrender to Summer

Spring is the last season my Gianna walked this earth. I feel like today I stand on a bridge that I am being forced to cross. When I turn around, I see that early season of Spring with her so alive. Those cold days when we felt warmer days would never come. We chased joy,... Continue Reading →

Gianna’s miracle. Her story goes on…..

This was the testimony that I shared at Gianna's celebration of her LIFE.  Gianna's story is my favorite to tell, but not my favorite earthly ending FOR US. But we cling to truth. She lives forever! Our beautiful jewel! “Of one thing I am perfectly sure: God's story never ends with 'ashes.” ― Elisabeth Elliot, These Strange... Continue Reading →

A Grieving Father’s Heart…..

I think it is important to share on Father's Day what a True Father's Heart looks like. It is not often you get to hear this incredible man's heart. It is one in a million. His  heart for his children is a pure reflection of our Heavenly Daddy's relentless love for all of us. His... Continue Reading →

Sucking Lemons

 .....oh the giggles that would explode as we compared our reactions!! "Mommy, it is SO SO delicious and sweet and so wonderful!!!!" (As her eyes lit up with such delight!) "Gianna!!!, no no! its so completely sour and terrible, yuck, ewwwwww!!!" (scrunching my face up  with a look of disgust!)  “NO, is amazing! Trust... Continue Reading →

The Deep Ocean of the “Now…..”

People say to just focus on the moment now. "Grace for the moment. Breathe….breathe." They are right. Kind of…. Well  .....its super freakin’ hard . Flashbacks can hurt deeply but At least she still lives in the flashbacks….flash-forwards hurt more because we have to imagine her not in the future. The pain is so heavy... Continue Reading →

Not really an update…..

We are walking the great unknown a wilderness that makes us feel abandoned at times despite all the head knowledge and verses put before us. We lament.  We scream. We cry. We bang on our Daddy’s chest. There is always someone breaking down in this house.  Nights are very very hard. Gianna had such a... Continue Reading →

airport welcome!!!

THANK YOU FOR PRAYING HIM HOME!!!!!!Hudson's been home 10 days!!!!!I cant believe it!He's truly wonderful.... and it's amazing how beautifully God is just grafting him right in to his new family... I am not good with keeping the blog updated because I use Instagram now to document our family's journey! You can find us @stopforflowers user... Continue Reading →

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